What makes me excited?

Hmmm....good question!! I really had a hard time with this but did end up with some ideas. I have tried to list things that I enjoy and that I look forward to. Even if it seemed miniscule ....I wrote it down anyway. ....because that could be the seed I need to start this growing process. First, I love helping people. I can't explain the feeling I get.. but it just makes me feel so good. I also love researching things on the computer. It is fun for me too.....I like learning new things. Another thing that puts a smile on my face is subbing. The only downfall with it, is not seeing the kids on a regular basis. I do have a few choice schools but I think finding something more regular (i am looking into a permanent assistant position) would make it even better. When I have been out and about I noticed that I REALLY loved taking pictures. There has to be a photography class around here....I just have to make it a priority. So even though I had a little difficulty starting my list, in the end I think I have some great ideas on..... what makes me excited :))

Fear Of The Unknown

It's been a while since my last blog entry. I thought once I wrote my first I would have tried a few new things.....nope. So I am wondering why? Not much time, not a lot of money.....nope that's not it, though I could use some more money. When I think of stretching my wings and venturing out to the unknown......fear sets in. Fear is a terrible thing...it's not tangible it makes no sense, and it can't help me at all. Yet it holds me back from growing as a person. I have thought of a few things I would like to try, art classes being one of them. Logically I know I can take the class, see if I like it, and stick with it or try something else. But the irrational...screams, "what if you fail, you don't know that much about art." I would like to smack some sense into irrational....but I am afraid. The only thing I can think of to do is.. do it anyway. Hopefully the more new things I try the easier this will get! I am going to TRY to suppress this fear and push forward. If I don't then I am not growing....and if you are not growing, you're dying....