Where Does The Time Go?

Wow....Seven months?? Really? I think we all have good intention....but don't always follow through on them. I really wanted to experience new things and grow.....or did I?? At the beginning, I had a lot of great ideas that I wanted to try, but just like planting a seed.....you can't just expect for it to grow if you don't give it what it needs. I let my grand ides go to the wayside....put it at the bottom of my list. You can't expect to grow as a person if you don't have goals and passions....I did neither. I am rather disappointed in myself. We have been dealing with Jamie's job loss for awhile now...so again I wonder, "When will I find the time?"

What makes me excited?

Hmmm....good question!! I really had a hard time with this but did end up with some ideas. I have tried to list things that I enjoy and that I look forward to. Even if it seemed miniscule ....I wrote it down anyway. ....because that could be the seed I need to start this growing process. First, I love helping people. I can't explain the feeling I get.. but it just makes me feel so good. I also love researching things on the computer. It is fun for me too.....I like learning new things. Another thing that puts a smile on my face is subbing. The only downfall with it, is not seeing the kids on a regular basis. I do have a few choice schools but I think finding something more regular (i am looking into a permanent assistant position) would make it even better. When I have been out and about I noticed that I REALLY loved taking pictures. There has to be a photography class around here....I just have to make it a priority. So even though I had a little difficulty starting my list, in the end I think I have some great ideas on..... what makes me excited :))

Fear Of The Unknown

It's been a while since my last blog entry. I thought once I wrote my first I would have tried a few new things.....nope. So I am wondering why? Not much time, not a lot of money.....nope that's not it, though I could use some more money. When I think of stretching my wings and venturing out to the unknown......fear sets in. Fear is a terrible thing...it's not tangible it makes no sense, and it can't help me at all. Yet it holds me back from growing as a person. I have thought of a few things I would like to try, art classes being one of them. Logically I know I can take the class, see if I like it, and stick with it or try something else. But the irrational...screams, "what if you fail, you don't know that much about art." I would like to smack some sense into irrational....but I am afraid. The only thing I can think of to do is.. do it anyway. Hopefully the more new things I try the easier this will get! I am going to TRY to suppress this fear and push forward. If I don't then I am not growing....and if you are not growing, you're dying....

Mommy Who?

Like the title, I am on a quest to figure out who I am. I know I am mommy, wife, daughter, sister. But those are all titles......I want to know who I am. What makes me, ME.?I think we fall into our roles in our family and society, and just play the part. Recently I have asked myself....who is Lisa, what are her passions, what are her dreams? And as of right now, I don't know. For the next few months (maybe longer) I am going to be on a journey to find out some of those answers. Life is too short, I need to know who I am and what I am all about. I know so much about everyone in my life.....but very little about ME.